18.

smile lovely.

17.

you've officially created a situation that will not work out well.

The Crossing

not perfect, but im very proud of it.

nights like this ... you wake up and realize youre all alone.

you have truly gotten in over your head this time.

about to head out to finish up shooting my video project.

13.

today is a rainy day, i am not a fan.

12.

11.

so today, is kinda different. im not going to deal with my simple problems and little upsets. its about the big picture. ive known these girls since i was in 5th grade, and some even from 2nd grade. we all played on this team together for like 8 years or something crazy like that. i dont think i can say i was apart of anything, besides this, for that long. this aau basketball team made me who i am today. i made lasting friendships with these girls that dont nessissarly have to be maintained. were not active friends, we dont call each other or hang out, but somthing about playing next to these girls in honestly thousands of basketball games has created a bond that were all starting to feel again. its refreashing and depressing at the same time. coach you truly are hero to me. my prayers are with your family.

10.1

well this morning when i woke up i didnt know that all my problems would seem so insignificant after one phone call. you were a great man, you will be miss even by those you may have forgotten.

10.

i hate waking up in the morning and feeling like i dont even know myself. its like theres 2 separate people inside of me, and i dont even know what one is right. i feel lost, and everything was fine a few months ago. then you happened. am i getting played or am i just playing myself?

9.

i have no interest in going outside today. i have no interest in interacting with anyone. i just feel like staying in bed all day and watching movies.

8.

animals are cool. sometimes i like them better then people. they love you. what more can you ask for?

7.

4 more weeks.

6.

fun nights make for hungover mornings. this life style is killing me. text messaging is the devil.

5.1

i just deleted everything i had on my ipod. i feel like jumping off a cliff. this week had been astoundingly horrible.

5.

dont call me, dont text me, dont think about me, and even more so dont try to talk to me in person. im not one to hold grudges, but this is cant let go of quite yet. you lied to me and you hurt me. im not up to having any sort of relainsionship with you anymore.

4.

i really detest solid white walls. why does every house and or apartment have to be white walls? would a coat of some color really matter? grrrr. they are so boring. im talking about walls, clearly ive had an exciting day today. im not looking forward to thursday. maybe ill talk about that on thursday.

3.

So I was home for the weekend ... it was nice. I decided on Saturday that I didn't like my face much and that my camera was a better representation of myself.

Today I've decided that i will not tolerate LIARS in my life. Not that I've never lied, I have and I hate that I have done it, but if someone asks you a question and you lie to their face, you have no place in their life. I promise you that if you ask me something, I will NEVER lie to you. You most likely wont like my answer, but I cant stand the thought of lying to a friend. You are not my friend, and you no longer have a place in my life.

2.1

so while sitting in my history of photography class, i realized that i need to make more art. even if its bad art. i need to make things.

2.

i was just about to put some make up on before i went to class, but then i started thinking about why i wear make up at all. i mean, i dont think i look terrible without it, and i dont necessarily know if guys can even tell a difference. (not that im activily searching for one.) i realized that i like the actual process of putting make up on, it makes me feel like im painting or something. i like make up, i think ive always pretended that i didnt, but i really do. its fun to play with. its nice not to feel like i have to wear it though. i didnt end up putting any on for class either if you were wondering.

1.2

so im sitting in the computer lab on campus, and its starting to feel like a second home.

1.

So I have decided that I am going to take advantage of this blog I created. Im not sure what I am going to write about yet, but I can assure you that anything I write will be full of spelling and punctuation errors.