who loves not be hung over? this girl.

for starters, last night was lots of fun. i love random dance parties. but how is it that i can go months without thinking of someone, and yet they still pop into my dreams? and why, after 5 years when i do dream about him, do i still revert back to feelings i had in 10th grade? why cant it just go away? am i really that stuck? god i hope not. i guess in a way i am still kinda stuck on that, i mean i cant even talk to the kid when im around him. i feel so bad about it cause we used to be friends, but i just cant. every time i do the tears just well up behind my eyes. dang it ... i am stuck. haha.